Friday, February 5, 2016

Love in the age of autism, part 2

I have trust issues.

Part of this has a lot to do with previous life experiences,  but some of it has much to do with my own inherent failures to comprehend social situations, and as a result make epic communication errors.

One way or another I have issues with trusting people.

Many years ago I was in a relationship that ended abruptly as a result of a deception.  Ever since then I have had issues with taking what people say at face value, let's be honest people tell you what they think you need to hear, not what you actually need to know.

But, back to the story at the center of all of this.

I never want to have children, there is very good reasoning behind this with basis in genetics and inheritance of traits.  But, anyway, I never want children,  the world has enough of them, the world does not need any more.

I was in a relationship and I made this very clear.  I make no secret of the fact that I do not want children.
On a side note.  I don't want children, ever.

But back to the story, I was in a relationship and it was diving through that accretion disk towards the black hole of failure.  My significant other decided that the best solution for this would be to have a baby.
Babies make everything better, right?

The other side of this was that she wasn't going to tell me that she decided to ditch the birth control pills and just let the chips fall where they may.

Of course, despite her constant complaints that I wasn't paying enough attention to her I was able to pick up on a one day change in the timing of her menstrual cycle and confronted her about it.

Well, that was the end of that relationship.

Also the end of me being able to take people's word at face value.


Post-thought

Maybe it could be considered PTSD, whatever.

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