Friday, February 5, 2016
Love in the age of autism, part four
I don't think I should be allowed to date. I am a great friend, but actually doing the relationship thing confuses me.
I do not know what my job is.
No one gave me a checklist and an instruction manual. (I should mention I have one of these now).
I could really use one.
I like women, I really do. I have no idea what to do with them.
Best if I just keep my distance, although I am sure that will cause pain as well, I can't win.
Best not to ask the question, you may not like the answer.
I am bad at this.
I really wish that life could be like a movie, two ships cross paths and then never interact again.
You always have questions, but you never have to try to answer them.
I like answering questions about other things, not these things.
Anyway, I am writing all of this up in apprehension. Life is throwing questions at me and I am pondering if I want to know the answers.
I have not made a decision yet, but I have put a lot of thought into it tonight.
Maybe tomorrow I will have an answer, maybe I will just have more questions.
I may have more questions that I don't want to find the answer for.