Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Selfishness

For the last two months I have been selfish. I threw out the person who made me feel like a caretaker. I have been doing what I want when I want to do it. I have been spending time with people who make me happy instead of worrying so much about making them happy. I have had people ask me for support and help and I have given it freely and happily but overall I have taken more than I have given. My friends have really been there for me and supported me when I was at my lowest and trying to get used to living life alone.

There are times when I have acted in ways that drained people too much or used them or made them do things they were not comfortable with. I apologized to those people and tried my best to remedy those situations. Relying on other people instead of being relied upon is not something I am used to. As I get better I am spending more time with me. I am only responsible for my own happiness. No one else is. And I am not in charge of anyone else's. I guess prioritizing my own happiness above anyone else's probably counts as selfishness. But I guess I am okay with that. As long as I am not having a negative impact on anyone else I am perfectly okay being selfish.