Friday, February 5, 2016

Love in the age of autism, part four

I don't think I should be allowed to date.  I am a great friend, but actually doing the relationship thing confuses me.

I do not know what my job is.

No one gave me a checklist and an instruction manual. (I should mention I have one of these now).

I could really use one.

I like women, I really do.  I have no idea what to do with them.

Best if I just keep my distance, although I am sure that will cause pain as well, I can't win.

Best not to ask the question, you may not like the answer.

I am bad at this.

I really wish that life could be like a movie, two ships cross paths and then never interact again.
You always have questions, but you never have to try to answer them.

I like answering questions about other things,  not these things.

Anyway, I am writing all of this up in apprehension.  Life is throwing questions at me and I am pondering if I want to know the answers.

I have not made a decision yet, but I have put a lot of thought into it tonight.

Maybe tomorrow I will have an answer, maybe I will just have more questions.

I may have more questions that I don't want to find the answer for.